This is ME!!!!

This is me screaming in agony
as if fire burst through my skin.
This is me whimpering in sorrow
as my patience are worn thin.
This is me sobbing uncontrollably
holding my sides and rocking.
This is me clutching my ears
to keep out the hurtful talking.
This is me biting off my tongue
trying to keep the pain in.
This is me ripping flesh from my face
looking for myself in the blood and skin.
This is me hiding in the dark
afraid to touch the light.
This is me running away
to avoid yet another fight.
This is me drinking bleach
to rid myself of me.
This is me still here and me
I failed so miserably
This is me catatonic
with confusion and emptiness.
This is me laughing hysterically
trying to make sense of this mess.
This is me on my knees
praying for some hope.
This is me hanging myself
with tons of burlap rope.
This is me awake all night
trying to find sleep.
This is me asleep all day
with dreams of death I keep.
This is me on the phone
asking how you are.
This is me anxiously
hoping you'll notice my scar.
This is me in my true form
telling you what I do.
This is me smiling
obviously lying to you.
This is me gouging out my eyes
so I can't see what you mean.
This is me writing down
all the things I've seen.